Sound of my Hearts.. ^^

People say I change too much. Here's the truth, I grew up. -anonymous-

Judging a person do not define who they are, it defines who YOU are~ -anonymous-

Eventually, the ugly duckling will become the Beautiful Swan~ -anonymous-

I think I'm ugly and nobody wants to love me, just like her I wanna be pretty, I wanna be pretty, don't lie to my face tellin' me I'm pretty~ -2NE1, UGLY-

I don't know what should I do. I don't know. I'm going crazy. I'm afraid I'll lose you~ -T-ara, Roly Poly-

Bad Tuesday~

Huyuyuyuyuyuyu (bunyi org nanges)...
So sad ow today... ye lar... I was waiting patiently for today and its soo, sooo, sooooo disappointing...
Why am I sad, huyuyu, becoz of A.G. huyuyuyuyuyu... Well not entirely AG fault, but AG's friend annoy me...
well bro, you are funny, at first... but you just annoy me.. ha!! bro, awak x ensem la bro... awak mmg funny tp awak lg funny kalo awak DIAM!
Oso, sbb awak la saya x dpt fokus kat AG.. huh!!
tpksa tggu next week.. huyuyuyuyuyuyu...
Hope next Tuesday is better... T_T

Ma lucky day~ ^^

Hahahaha... I guess these 2 days are my lucky days... why?? well, yesterday which is my birthday... hahaha, I got interviewed by RTM1... Actually, I want to be interviewed as I think I might get cut out.. I dont really know what did I answer but well, I guess I did well... so yesterday's news they showed the clip... <<bangga sekejap hahahahahahaha.... and today, I got a free facial... not really a facial, but I get to try a facial care product by Ginvera for free.... where can u try it for free??  on top of that, I also get a promo pack of those facial care worth RM20 for free... hahahhahahaha.... juz my lucky day...

I'm a Malaysian!

Hari Raya or Hari Merdeka?? well i just saw a video by matlutfi90 (if you love youtubers you must know this malaysian youtubers).. well, as usual, every video that he's made are meaningful... ada bnyk input dan bnyk facts yg kita bole dpt n fikir2kan... tp aku bkn nk ckp pasal video y dia buat 2.. well ada kaitan, aku da pkir psal benda ni lama dah... cuma xtaw nk tulis cmna.. lpas tgok vid dy bru dapat ilham.. cewah.. 

Independence day... Hari Kemerdekaan... tahun ini masuk tahun ke 54 negara kita merdeka... lebih setengah dekad kita merderka... tiap2 tahun kita melaungkan kalimah keramat MERDEKA... well, some of us, others just tgok org lain sebut.. but, adakah minda kita suda merdeka.. mungkin ya, mungkin juga tidak.. ayat cliché yg org selalu sebut, secara fizikalnya, kita sudah merdeka, namun mentaliti kita masih di takuk lama... well, cliché atau tidak.. itu adalah kebenarannya... 

ramai yang tidak tahu apatah lagi faham tentang pembangunan negara bangsa.. bukanlah saya mengatakan bahawa saya arif tentang perkara ini.. tetapi ilmu y saya ada adalah cukup untuk mengatakan saya tahu akan perkara negara bangsa ini... ( apasal guna ayat baku ni? semangat anak pasca merdeka da muncul da) negara bangsa merujuk kepada pengabunggan( well fusion) keatas entiti negara (tempat, geologi) dan bangsa ( budaya dan etnik) dengan menyamakan negara dan bangsa.. jadi bagi kita rakyat Malaysia kita adalah bangsa Malaysia.. bagi sesetengah pihak, pembangunan negara bangsa adalah seperti hendak memusnahkan bangsa etnik seseorang itu.. mereka tidak mahu bangsa mereka lenyap... namun, tujuan negara bangsa itu bukanlah untuk memusnahkan sesuatu bangsa.. dalam negara yang mempunyai berbilang bangsa dan kaum, perasan patriotisme terhadap negara itu sendiri adalah kurang jika di bandingkan dengan semangat kekitaan terhadap bangsa.. 

melayu, bumiputra sabah, sarawak dan orang asli merupakan tuan terhadap negara ini... kerana mereka lah org pioneer di negara ini.. manakala india dan cina di bawa masuk oleh British.. ini adalah fakta... tetapi, siapakah yang bersama2 menuntut kemerdekaan terhadap tanah melayu dahulu? adakah orang melayu sahaja?? tidak bukan.. semasa menuntut kemerdakaan daripada British, kita boleh bersama2 berganding bahu untuk memastikan negara ini bebas dari penjajah luar.. jd, adakah bangsa cina dan india tidak berhak terhadap negara ini?? jika mereka tidak menganggap negara ini sebagai negara mereka, they will not bother to fight for this independent... masyarakat bumiputra sabah dan sarawak pula telah setuju untuk bergabung dengan tanah melayu.. namun, masih ada sebilangan anak muda bumiputra yang mengatakan, 31 ogos bukanlah tarikh kemerdekaan malaysia.. itu tarikh kemerdekaan tanah melayu.. malaysia secara rasminya terhasil pada 16 september.. dan enggan mengakui tarikh 31 ogos itu... benar, 31 ogos tanah melayu merdeka, 16 sept malaysia tercipta.. namun, adakah sejarah yang tercipta pada 16 sept itu akan terjadi tanpa kemerdekaan tanah melayu pada 31 ogos.. perjuangan memartabatkan tarikh 16 sept adalah perjuangan yang  saya sokong, namun, kini setelah tarikh itu diiktiraf dan di martabatkan, seharusnya, muda mudi bumiputra juga mengakui dan mengiktiraf tarikh 31 ogos itu sebagai hari kemerdekaan... dan 16 sept hari malaysia..

pembangunan negara bangsa, pada pandangan saya bukanlah mustahil untuk dicapai... masyarakat perlu untuk lebih bersifat terbuka terhadap satu sama lain.. prejudis dan buruk sangka terhadap bangsa yang lain adalah seperti barah yang akan memusnahkan negara bangsa... bukanlah saya ingin anda semua melontar dan membuang identiti bangsa, etnik sendiri.. tetapi menerima bangsa2 yang lain untuk bersama2 membina negara bangsa.. setiap bangsa itu unik dan istimewa dari bangsa yang lain... dan bangsa lain tidak ada hak untuk menghina bangsa yang lainnya... kekalkan identiti bangsa etnik masing2 dan kita bentuk identiti bangsa malaysia berdasarkan identiti unik dari setiap bangsa.. 

seorang muslim mungkin berbeza dengan seorang yang beragama hindu..

seorang iban mungkin tidak bertutur bahasa melayu..

seorang india belainan warna kulit dari seorang cina..

seorang bajau tinggal di kawasan yang lain dari seorang orang asli...

namun, perbezaan itulah yang membuat kita SAMA...

ya... kita semua rakyat MALAYSIA

Hari Merdekaraya

Mungkin kita sentiasa berbalah, Mungkin kita sering bertelagah,

Pendapat kita mungkin berbeza, Pandangan kita berlainan arah,Itu hakikat manusia,Sama fizikalnya berbeza mindanya,becoz, at the end of the day,Kita adalah Kita, We are our own selves...Namun, di sebalik perbezaan itu, kita tetap sama...Hidup untuk mencari redha-Nya...Maaf dipinta, keampunan dipohon...Salam Aidilfitri dan Salam Merdeka buat semua...

pergh... aku post benda ni td kat pesbuk... wahahaha... xsgka diri ini sungguh puitis... 

lepas ni bole la wat puisi pulak... ahahahaha

tp, sume kat ats 2, I really mean it... it true from th bottom of my heart..

Up until now I only can convey my feeling through english...

why?? becoz it simple... so benda kat ats 2 walaupun ada mix2 ngan english aku kira sbgai pencapaian terbesar dalam bahasa melayu selain A1 msa SPM... ahahahahahaha...

ANYWAY!!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA 

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

HAPPY MERDEKA DAY!!

MERDEKA!!!! (jerit dgn penoh semangat)

p/s

aku kna gak tlis pasal ni... asal aku ckp maaf zahir batin kat kengkawan, mesti dyrg ckp, zahir jer batin blom agy... ahahaha... funny but well the def of batin here is the hidden things... such as, kalo ada tersinggung ke terase ke... then zahir 2 y bole nmpk la... tersepak ke, tetampar ke... hehehehe... so guys... MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN~~

Stylo weh!

Mlm y hening ni, tba2 aku rsa nk g usha2 tutorial pkai shawl... well, da nk rya ni, nk jgk stylo2 msa rya kn.. (kalo msa normal days x nk la over2 stylo kn..) msa rya ni lah nk melaram... jd td ada la muncul keinginan nk tgok2 style hana tajima y cun melecun 2.. tgok pny tgok.. ehh, senang jer nk tiru style dia nih.. pastu tba2 realiti dtg menjelma... hana tajima 2 cun tahap dewa... ko cun ker?? ahahahahaha... btol jgk.. org cun mcm hana tajima 2 pakai apa pon tetap cun.. jd tepaksa la melupakan hasrat di hati 2... kikikiki... tp da kbtulan usha2 tutorial, aku usha la sume style y ada... mak aih~ bejuta2 lemon style shawl ni... pesen ntah apa2 pon ada... to tell the truth, msa kat kl pon mmg da nmpk bejuta2 jenis pesen org pakai shawl ni... ada y kiut 2 seswai la pakai pesen hana tajima@yuna y serabai mambai 2... ada y x brapa nk kiut 2... mmg nmpk serabai giler lar... hahahahaha... aku nk jgk kn try serabai2 ni... tp tkot nnt nmpk mcm org homeless plak... mcm bru mati laki pon ada gak (ye la sedih sgt smpai x sempat nk pkai tdg elok2..) jd aku pon nga kumpul seberapa bnyk style y mampu ntok aku try esok.... mnataw ada y bekenan d hati (dan di muka y agak kiut x brapa nk kiut ni)... 

aku pon nk melawa stylo mylo gak ari raya nih.... XD

Raya already???

Time do fly fast.. Without even realising we are in the middle of Ramadhan..

 Yay!! Its gonna be Raya soon.. Everyone is busy preparing themselves not to forget their house for Raya.. And speaking of which remind me that I haven’t got my Baju Raya..

 Well, neither one of us in the family got their baju raya yet.. hahahahaha…  

it just seem not soo important for us to get NEW baju raya.. this few years back seem like nobody even care bout baju raya.. and which makes me think, since when NEW baju raya become soooo significant with Hari Raya itself…. Well minus the fact of baju raya is for hari raya..

I don’t see any need for people buying NEW baju raya every year.. thank god that raya is once a year.. if raya is monthly… huhu.. who knows.. this also ring a bell for me.. like, when it only raya time people do visit each other.. if not for raya, people just pass by like they are stranger.. then, to those who just seek for forgiveness only on hari raya.. hahahaha.. that’s even funnier.. they just build up a year worth of mistakes just to ask for forgiveness on raya… its not that hard to apologies when making mistake.. why need to build a year worth of mistakes.. these kind of things makes hari raya WEIRD.. yes! W.E.I.R.D. hari raya has lost its original meaning.. isn’t raya is celebration( more like being thankful) after a month of Ramadhan?? <<correct me if I’m wrong.. so why need new clothes, why ask for forgiveness worth a year (since we just can apologies after made some mistakes) and why only visit during raya??

Its not like it is a wrong things to do.. but giving that Hari Raya has lost it own meaning due to these new culture.. 

if you ask kids what is raya for them, they’ll answer duit raya( oh yea, forget to mention it earlier), new baju raya, kuih raya, and balik kampong… ahahahaaha… cute~~ at the same time just not true.. they need to be educate the true meaning of raya.. instead of some material memory of raya.. what I’m trying to say is, if the kids don’t have new baju raya, their parents didn’t give them duit raya, cannot balik kampong is that mean their not having raya?? 

They need to be told of the joy of hari raya.. the feeling of thankfulness( not sure if that  word even exist) as they have gone a month of fasting in Ramadhan..

Alas, looking at the bright side, getting new baju raya is the way of expressing joy for this special day.. it not like everyday we cant buy new baju raya.. well given that the baju raya will remain as baju raya, even they just a plain baju kurung.. if put with others baju kurung, we wont call it simply as baju kurung rite.. we gonna say like “ini baju raya aku thun lepas, y biru tu 2 tahun lepas… y merah 2 baju kurung biase jer.. aku bw p kuliah jer 2” hahahaha.. special isn’t it? Well visiting on raya is just and excuse.. what I mean by excuse is, when suddenly you come to visit your relatives, that might become AWKWARD~ so, on hari raya it can be an excuse to come visit..”alah, hari ni kan hari raya.. kena la lawat sedara mara..” nice excuse there~ hahahaha.. but asking a year worth of forgiveness is just… not that right.. one should apologies after making mistakes.. maybe not on the spot, but holding it for a year?? Well.. not cool~

So as I’m saying, those new emerged culture is now a part of our hari raya, but still I hope we don’t lose the spirit of hari raya.. the true meaning of hari raya itself.. so that’s all.. now I’ve gotta think what colour is my baju raya gonna be.. CHOW~~

Whats up docs...??

Sooooo.. recently my cousin get into accident and was brought to the ER at HQE.. his jaw broke like the jaw just hanging there and cannot be closed.. by the time he got to the hosp his face was covered in blood.. (scary~~) at a glance it look like a severe damage( like maybe his skull was broken, the brain damaged, got blood clot, need blood transplant bla..bla..bla..) but its not that severe... well in ER broken jaw is not that severe.. and so, the doctors just left him there without being consult.. 

as i was saying, the injury are not really severe just a fer sticthes here and there, the jaw need to be fixed, but it took almost 7 hours for my cuz being finally consulted and sent to normal ward.. WTH?? 7 hours?? thank god my cuz is not badly injured.. if he was badly injured, like lost his arm.. aint 7 hours can kill him.. well maybe they'll know that he's suffering from minor injury.. ( i guess i can live with that)..
so basically, the next day, my mom went to visit my cuz and guess what... they just made a few stitches on his cuts and the jaw are still kept hanging there.. like literally hanging there.. he cant barely speak ( if you count mumbling as speaking) and let alone eat... and what the nurses say?? they just consult dentist to ask bout the broken jaw before they can do anything bout it.. well if that the case, why don't you do anything bout the jaw.. don't let it hanging there.. they say TOMORROW they will tied the jaw up so that my cuz can close his mouth... whattt??? tomoro?? why not now.. there's not enough nurse and docs to care for the patient in this hosp rite now... ok.. let me make it clear.. the hosp is HQE.. not polyclinic ah chong!! what on earth that is not enough docs.. its not like we in some sort of village deep in the forest.. its in the city... KOTA KINABALU!!
OMG.. I never realise that there are not enough docs and nurses in the city.. all this time I think the insufficiency of docs and nurses are for those in the rural areas.. Omo..omo..omo...

SO! for those who are doctor-to-be... especially those who studies outside the country, please... please... jebal( in korean of course).... come back to Malaysia and serve the country after you have finish studying.. The country especially our own state need you..
-Berkhidmat untuk negara-*

(* pesanan khidmat masyarakat di bawakan oleh ubat gigi Siti)

The "M" thing~

Recently, people just love to hear about Marriage, yes, the "M" word... this word is so powerful till each and every post that my friend made which contain the M word will get hundreds replies or at least likes ( in facebook I mean) well, recently also, there is a friend of mine which kept asking me when will I get married... WTH!! I'm just turning 20,(yes, birthday wise, I'm still 19)... I haven't finish up my degree why would I get married.. its not like I cant but, there still a lot of things to do before getting married.. 

yes I really mean A LOT~~ 

for instance, 

1- finish up my degree

2- get a decent job

3- learn to take care of household

4- improving cooking skills

5- save enough money

6- buy a car

bla bla bla... but the most important thing is.....

Enjoying Single Life to the max!!

why would I take responsibility of a marriage when I still can enjoy my youth..

well my friend said that early marriage can avoid maksiat...

well, for me, are youth can make you do such thing? why cant you avoid it when you are not married??

those answer are for those who cannot control their lust.. I'm sorry but it is the truth..

so if you think you cannot control the lust... avoid coupling~ its not that hard... hahahahahahaha...

but anyway, for those my friend who have plan for getting married, do invite me to your weeding..

for those who are still single, chill out!

now is the time to enjoy youth.. 

do anything that you want before you are tied of marriage responsibility ( do good things only!)

as for me, this is the last time I will talk bout the M word ...

the next time I talk bout it, I might planning for my wedding...

hahahahahahaha....

ChIlLaX!!!

My Mom, The Perfectionist and Me!

Me, being the only daughter in the family do have many privileges as well as many restriction and task.

It is not a secret that I'm very, very spoiled brat.. hahaha... Even I have a little bro, it doesn't stop me to be a spoiled kid.. Well, anything that I want always being fulfilled and granted.. But it has its price, living with a perfectionist mom make me suffocated.. well, my mom want me to be a proper women but at the same time she spoiled me much.. I'm 20 this year but the 2 year old me still dont want to leave.. I know, every mom want the best for their child regardless the gander.. but having a mom with perfectionist as a trait, plus the natural feeling of a mother who want the best of her child is very hard.. my mom is a great person.. like supermom.. she work at day and at night she is a housewife.. she juggle work and household perfectly (well what do you expect from a perfectionist).. but there is one problem.. ME! I've been living with a maid taking care of everything until I'm 10 and after that at 13 I live in hostel for 5 years of my high school, another 1 year in matriculation and now living at hostel in my uni... so, literally I've have very little experience in doing chores.. hahahaha... it true though, my parents never let me help in the kitchen ( let along make me made my own food) until high school when suddenly my mom scold me for cannot cook... and that's when I'm 16.. for the first time my mother make me to clean the fish... yuck! that day i wont eat the fish I've clean.. hahaha... up untill now I can manage the chores and household.. but still, all my work are not perfect in her eyes.. when I cook, she constantly say that I've used the wrong technique, when i sweep, she will point out places that i missed, when i wash the dishes, she said the way I'm doing it was wrong... fuuhh~~ its tiring~~ but she say it is to prepare me for marriage.. she want me to become the ultimate wife.. ahahaha.. she's preparing me for marriage but she stop me from having a boyfriend... she want me to focus on my studies first.. that what she say.. hahahaha.. she said that, how smart the women is, she still gonna be in the kitchen... true~ so i guess I just gonna work hard to pleased her and become the person she want... well after all I LoVE my MOM!!

maybe this post should be entitled as 

My Mom, The Perfectionist and The Imperfect Me... :)

OLDIES~~

well recently got some gathering with my old schoolmate.. it was nice even though only a few (it is truly few people show up that day) its okay... we had a nice day and get to catch up each other stories.. well that not what i wanna say bout today.. i wanna write bout CHANGE..
yes C.H.A.N.G.E~~
1 word that make all the difference in the world.. people do change rite? I myself are differ from what I'm in school.. I've become more mature and cuter :) hahahaha...
but can we change our memories? the past? no rite? the past cannot be change.. if in the past we've promise to be friends, isn't it to be forever? or do we broke that friendship and I cannot recall it..
how much people change, we cannot change our friendship..
people said that
" friendship is build without word, no promises but stays forever"
but well, I guess they are wrong..
coz, the way I fell rite now is,
"friendship is when we are together, when we are apart, we are stranger"

so to those out there who might have forgotten their OLD friends, do catch up with them sometimes..
dont wait for them to contact you. they might fell the same and wait for you to called them first.. when that happen, both of you will be waiting forever.. and to those who their friend have contacted them, dont make things awkward between you and your friend.. they might not contacted you again.. well its a reminder for me as well... :)

Its clean okay....

I have thought long bout posting this post finally I've decided to post it.. Hal ini hanya lah pandangan aku semata2.. xda kaitan dgn y hidup ataw y tlh meninggal dunia~~ :)

Well as all Malaysian know, Bersih 2.0, despite being banned and countless warning from the police are already done. From the news, it said that 500 students are involved during the day. As a student my self, personally I didn’t support doing some illegal demonstration (well even though it said as “perhimpunan” but it looks like a demonstration for me). I prefer the right way that is doing it directly to the one who responsible for the thing we wanna change. Like the Bersih, the main purposes are as well we can say as clean. They just want some justice that seem make sense. Their demands are something that good for all. It not towards any political view, but the way of conveying the purpose are somewhat make people disagree with the demand. Well, it is not their fault either, as the government didn’t make enough places for the so called “rakyat” to voice out their voice. Thats my view only. I’m also didn’t want to talk about what happen that day, what happen to the people involved, how they are treated and bla, bla, bla. But well, I cannot help myself from thinking, what are the student think when they make themselves involved in the thing. Isn’t it illegal? Police even warn them, days, weeks before the event. Isn’t that will make them break some college rules? Well maybe they think that they need to speak up on behalf of the student, but well guys, that are not the way. You gonna ruin your own future. Why not finish up studies, get a good degree, get recognition from university or college and then advance to the political career. That ways, people will look up to you and your “perjuangan”. Doing something that will make you in trouble will not make people respect you but people do know you as someone who is brave (that’s not a doubt). True, that student voice MUST be heard. I’m using must instead of need as it is vital for a growing country as our country which aims to be an advance country listen to the young voice. These young voices are the voices which will lead the country to future. People will not live forever, when the time comes, these young voices will be the leader of the country. If their voices are ignored, big and abrupt changes will be made by the time young voices become leader. Abrupt changes are not good. People are hard to accept abrupt changes. They need time, and when leader and people are not one, the vision of becoming an advance country is even further away. Our voices need to be heard and fast. So why not giving us a platform to voice out? Well I’m not really know the function of MPP in my college but I guess it is one of the platform that given for us to use. But, everybody knows that it just for inside the campus not to the government. We need some place to voice out our opinion, plans and aspiration but not by involving ourselves to some illegal demo. I still personally think that inappropriate for student.

P/S

I’m just conveying my voice through some technologies. Are the government will notice my voice? Naah, I doubt so. But doing this makes me feel relieved and hope not make me in trouble. ^^.

Speak Now!!!!

Enchanted by Taylor Swift

my new obsession now.. ahahahaha...why??

the song tell the story itself...

get it?? or u just dunno what the hell is the song is about...

ahahahaha...

ok for anyone who just dont get it or just too lazy to listen to the whole song or just got a very bad internet connection.. (like i do now)..

i'll just summarize it...

basically it just an expression of feeling of someone who had a love-at-a-first-sight...

feeling enchanted to met the person.. 

wandering whether that person feel the same as *we do (*well we are the one who singing rite*)

just expressing the feeling by song~~~

its a great song though.. 

so just enjoy~~~~~ 

^___________^

Hish ko nih!!

A : B, y assgment 2 kn, biar aku je la wat introduction.. kn ke ko da wat hasil kajian...
B : eh btol ke A ko nak wat ni??
A : ah ha btol.. aku asyik wat ckit jer kalo keje grouping ni.. aku tgok ko da bnyk da wat...
B : eh.. xde la bnyk.. biase jer... same jer ngan ahli y lain (kecuali ko la)... ok kalo g2, ko wat intro pastu aku(B),C n D wat hasil...
A : bnyk ke nak wat intro??
B : ckit jer... 2 page jer... hasil ni y kne wat bnyk...

------- few days later --------

A : B..B... susa la nk wat intro nii... x paham aku..
B : eh.. ape y susah?? ko just bg overview jer pasal topik.. x yah la spesifik pon.. ko tulis jer~~
A : B ye ker?? bahagian ko, ko da wat brape page??
B : aku da wat 3 page ade lg separuh nk siap lar...
A : eh.. ko wat sorg je ker?? terer la ko..
B : terer?? xde la... biase la 2.. assgment sblom2 ni pon aku kna wat g2 gak...
A : B.... ko boleh tak tlg aku wat intro 2.. ala~~ kn bhgian ko da nk siap.. aku x taw la mcmna nk wat...
B : hah??!! eh.. aku bz la.. asgment subjek lain pon x ciap agy...
A : ala B... tlg la... mlm ni ko dtg blik aku ok... tlg aku wat asgment...
B : .......er........

korg pernah tak lalui situasi mcm di atas????

huhuhuhuhu... aku skrg dlm situasi ni lar...

kwn aku ni, suka sgt bergantung kat aku... aku igt bila da bg2 tugas wat assgment ni, bole la dy berdikari..

tngok2... hmm.. haram...

aku jgk y kna wat keje dy..

bile dpt keje ckit...

"eh!! ape ni?? apesal aku kna wat lampiran n rujukan.. bnyk kot..."

yg ktorg kna wat hasil kajian, kna pegi interview, kna cr buku kat library ni x bnyk??

tp nnt pandai lak simpati tgok org wat keje bnyk..

"eh... cian nye ko wat keje 2.. bnyk kot 2... aku x wat ape2 pon.. aku rasa besalah plak tgok ko wat keje aku"

tp bila da bg bnda nk wat...

"ala... tlg la aku.. aku x reti la nak wat bnda 2... susa kot.. pening aku"

padahal aku suh dy wat intro jer pon.. 2 page je kot... xkn da pening wat bnda 2..

adussss~~~ aku x paham sungguh la manusia ni... 

aku da lama pendam bnda niyh.. hurmmm.. sabo je la...

anyway... korg ade idea x mcmna nak wat org2 gni sedar ckit...??

SHOUT SHOUT SHOUT!!!!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~KYAAAAAA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ahahahahahaha... puhhhhhhh~~~

الحمد لله

esemen da siap and da selamat dihntar...

ahahahhaha.... 

ringan cket kepala hotak aku...

pasni nk kna fokus final exam plak...

benda2 lain.... pas exam bru pkir... bole x???

~~~~ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha~~~~

aku rasa aku da jdi biol la

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SHOUT IT OUT!!!!!!!

benci la tgok wall ko!!!!

apesal la aku g tgok td!! huh!! menyesal!!

 tau x????

mesti la ko x tau... 

sakit tau hati aku..

kalo x suka, ckp la dpn2... 

jgn la saje je nk wat org sakit hati!!!!!!! 

dgn org lain ko bole jer gurau2.... 

ngan aku ckp pon ko xnk!!!

eishhhhhhhhhh!!!! 

BENCI!!!! TAW X??????

@#$%^&*()+_?><!!!!!!!

Shout Out Loud 3!!!!

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JERAWAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Shout Out Loud 2!!!!

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ASEMENT AKU X CIAP AGY!!!!!!!!

SAPER2 NAK TOLONG AKU WAT ESEMEN X??????????????????

AKU BLANJA KFC.... 

~~ ahahahahahah ~~

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SHOUT OUT LOUD!!!!

WEEEIIIIYYYHHH!!!!!!!!!

AKU SUKA KAU!!!! KO TAW TAK???????

~~~ahahaha~~~~ 

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When I grow up....

Cheh3... ni bkn when i grow up lagu pussycat dolls 2..

ahahaha... its more to question..

when i grow up????

Grow up dlm konteks apa ar..??

dlm bnyk la...

my mind n my physical..

wahahahahahaha...

I think I've become more mature lar..

Maybe not that much, but it seems like as time goes by,

I've become more and more mature..

afterall, i'll be 20 this year..

how can I still have my 13 years old mind in me... ahahahaha...

as for my phisical.. hmmphhh....

I dont think I can grow anymore..

huuuhuuu.. they said that girls stop growing ( height) at 18...

huwaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

that means I'll not going to be taller..

its not like i want to be tall like 180 or something but..

at least not as short as i'm now..

people always ask if i'm still in secondary school..

like... there's 1 day where i was going to airport and suddenly the abg bus ask me....

"adik nak pegi mana?? adik, ni bus nak g apot.. adik ni umo brapa??"

citt.. "saya 19 thun la bang n mmg sya nak g apot pon..." hmpph...

sometimes my mother's friend ask me....

"fara tgktn brapa da..??"

citt.... i dunno whether to be proud as people thinks i'm still young or fell offended..

hehehehe.... wif my height 149cm and weight 37kg..

no wonder people thinks i'm still in school..

and the worst part is, my cousin which is in form 3 now is taller and bigger than me..

hmmphh...

when will I grow??? huhuhuhuhu...

got any tips to be taller???

Wanna be taller.... huhu.. T_T

Care 4 someone...???

little did i know...... that in the deepest place of my heart....

I care bout this special someone... 

and... i just found out that i care bout that person just a few minute ago.. hahahaha..

i've known that person for a long time... 

and we are not in the relationship that u can call friend...

i know that person and that person knows me... and we are not that close also...

ahahahaha.. so how actually i can care bout that person??? hurm..not sure..

human heart is so, so, so..... weird rite??

but am I really care bout that person...??

if u see the person living a happy life.. and its makes u happy..

isnt that means u care bout the person..???

Omo!!! 

난 몰라!!!!!!!! 

Pessimist vs Optimist

People say,

"The optimist invents the airplane and the pessimist the parachute."

So... my question is.. which one do we need to be?..

people always say that being optimistic is the key of success..

4 me... if u're being pessimist u're are closer 2 reality rite?

to make it simple i'll just do a simple comparison between those 2...

( note that the first one is for optimist n other is pessimist)

• brought +ve effect to mind VS -ve effect to mind
• day dreamer VS dream crusher
• problem solver VS problems finders
• inventor VS innovator 
• see problems as opportunity VS see opportunity as problems
• expecting miracle VS expecting bad consequences 

so..what do u think?? is being pessimist is better or optimist?

both attitude are vital in our life.. is like the yin n yang..

both need to be balance.. being balance is what realistic is about.. hope for the best and think for the worst..

when u're too pessimist u'll be miserable..

n if u're too optimist, people say u're delusional..

so guys keep the yin n yang in balance.. we dont wanna become miserable or delusional rite..?

Stay realistic and dream for the miracle... 

alahai~~~ nasib bdn~~

sungguh malang x bernasib baik ow aku ni...

mo kasi jd crita la kan...

air tumpah ats laptop n wat keybod x bole tkan huruf2 tertentu... 

(a - o - p n lain2)..

(msti korg pning, jd aku taip entri ni mcmna?..) 

hikhikhik.. windows kn maju da jd ada plak keybod d skrin..

tp terpaksa taip gna mouse la..( sbb kn laptop aku bkn touch skrin)

huhuhu... 

gni la rupa keybod 2...

pastu member2 aku suma blik ruma..

i'm going 2 be alone diz whole weekend..

rumate aku pegi kem pulak.. ( tido sorg la aku ni)

mo g jenjalan tp, kengkwan plak xmo..plus scholar lom msuk...

huhuhuhu...

cian kan aku...

huuuu~~~

diz gonna be a long~~~~ weekend...

Emo la pulak...

hikhikhik.... ha... ari ni aku xtaw napa... bkn arini jak..

dr 4-5 ari lepas lg... huhuhuhu... EMO jak..

kejap2 hepi... tp tba2 pandai emo2..

mood swing kali..<< da mcm ibu2 mengandung la pulak...

hikhikhik...

neway... aku mmg emo la smpai fb aku pon aku pi deactivate..

huahuahuahua...

ntah la napa... tp... e2 la... EMO( bkn nma sbnar) pnya pasal la nih!!

huh!! ahahahahahha...

bengong~~

omoya~~ i think i've lost my mind.. kihkihkih...

kalo 2-3 ari pas ni aku still lagi lam EMO mood nih..

ntah apa lg yang aku wat t..

haaaaa~~~~~~

-duit aku pon da abis da ni... ya lar, masa2 emo ni kuat lak aku makan... hehehehehehe-

huhuhu... ganaz ow EMO ni.. mkn gummy bears...

makan.. makan.. dan makan...

Asal boring je mkn.. asal boring je mkn.. 

tp bila mkn x plak boring...

korg pena x rsa mcm 2??

ahahahahaha...

sebnrnya da lma aku pkir sal bnda ni..

apasal asal boring rsa mak mkn..

sdg kan bru je mkn nasi.. plik kan??

korg pon g2 gak ke?? 

ke aku sorg je??

hehehehe... 

kengkadang aku takot gak la..

ye la.. bkn takot gemok ke apa..

tp takot ade pnyakit jer..

aku ni kuat mkn, tp x gmok2.. << bkn nak brag yea..

tp da mmg realiti.. 

dulu msa aku kicik2 mama aku da bw aku jmpa bnyk doktor..

suma ckp aku ni normal... 

cuma kurg berat je.. << ckp normal, tp kurg berat.. x normal la 2...

pastu bg aku multivitamin << spy tmbh slera mkn..

selera mmg btmbh.. tp berat bdn tetap sma...

dan pasal selalu sgt mkn multivitamin..

kesan ny smpy skrg...

2 la y jd...

asal boring makan.. asal boring makan..

ahahahaha..

skrg ni even aku mkn nasi 6 kali sehari pon berat aku xkn btmbh...

org lain jeles(konon) sbb aku ni x pena gain weight..

tp kalo korg jd aku..huhuhuhu..

sdey oow... berat aku skrg ni bru 37-39kg...

mcm berat budak darjah 4 jer... huhuhuhu.. T_T

- nak try appeton weight gain, tp mama x bg... T_T -

aritu da mkn bibimbap..
pasni nak try mkn kat Seoul Garden lak la.. ada sesape nak bw aku g c2??

It juz hurt...

I'm known as a happy girl..

yes.. rarely show my worries and sadness to other..

other think I'm easy..

they bullied me..

say say mean things to mean..

I know they juz joking..

but I'm also a human being..

have hearts..feeling..

I'm not showing my sadness doesn't mean I'm not hurt..

It juz really hurt when someone you thought are thoughtful and caring..

could be the one who are the most unthoughtful n uncaring..

could be the one who say the most hurtful words to you..

The word may not be so hurtful if it was other person..

but, when it come from you..

it juz like being stabbed by 100 swords..

"You called yourself my friend, but judging from what you did, your definition of friend might be different from mine"