My Mom, The Perfectionist and Me!

Me, being the only daughter in the family do have many privileges as well as many restriction and task.

It is not a secret that I'm very, very spoiled brat.. hahaha... Even I have a little bro, it doesn't stop me to be a spoiled kid.. Well, anything that I want always being fulfilled and granted.. But it has its price, living with a perfectionist mom make me suffocated.. well, my mom want me to be a proper women but at the same time she spoiled me much.. I'm 20 this year but the 2 year old me still dont want to leave.. I know, every mom want the best for their child regardless the gander.. but having a mom with perfectionist as a trait, plus the natural feeling of a mother who want the best of her child is very hard.. my mom is a great person.. like supermom.. she work at day and at night she is a housewife.. she juggle work and household perfectly (well what do you expect from a perfectionist).. but there is one problem.. ME! I've been living with a maid taking care of everything until I'm 10 and after that at 13 I live in hostel for 5 years of my high school, another 1 year in matriculation and now living at hostel in my uni... so, literally I've have very little experience in doing chores.. hahahaha... it true though, my parents never let me help in the kitchen ( let along make me made my own food) until high school when suddenly my mom scold me for cannot cook... and that's when I'm 16.. for the first time my mother make me to clean the fish... yuck! that day i wont eat the fish I've clean.. hahaha... up untill now I can manage the chores and household.. but still, all my work are not perfect in her eyes.. when I cook, she constantly say that I've used the wrong technique, when i sweep, she will point out places that i missed, when i wash the dishes, she said the way I'm doing it was wrong... fuuhh~~ its tiring~~ but she say it is to prepare me for marriage.. she want me to become the ultimate wife.. ahahaha.. she's preparing me for marriage but she stop me from having a boyfriend... she want me to focus on my studies first.. that what she say.. hahahaha.. she said that, how smart the women is, she still gonna be in the kitchen... true~ so i guess I just gonna work hard to pleased her and become the person she want... well after all I LoVE my MOM!!

maybe this post should be entitled as 

My Mom, The Perfectionist and The Imperfect Me... :)

OLDIES~~

well recently got some gathering with my old schoolmate.. it was nice even though only a few (it is truly few people show up that day) its okay... we had a nice day and get to catch up each other stories.. well that not what i wanna say bout today.. i wanna write bout CHANGE..
yes C.H.A.N.G.E~~
1 word that make all the difference in the world.. people do change rite? I myself are differ from what I'm in school.. I've become more mature and cuter :) hahahaha...
but can we change our memories? the past? no rite? the past cannot be change.. if in the past we've promise to be friends, isn't it to be forever? or do we broke that friendship and I cannot recall it..
how much people change, we cannot change our friendship..
people said that
" friendship is build without word, no promises but stays forever"
but well, I guess they are wrong..
coz, the way I fell rite now is,
"friendship is when we are together, when we are apart, we are stranger"

so to those out there who might have forgotten their OLD friends, do catch up with them sometimes..
dont wait for them to contact you. they might fell the same and wait for you to called them first.. when that happen, both of you will be waiting forever.. and to those who their friend have contacted them, dont make things awkward between you and your friend.. they might not contacted you again.. well its a reminder for me as well... :)

Its clean okay....

I have thought long bout posting this post finally I've decided to post it.. Hal ini hanya lah pandangan aku semata2.. xda kaitan dgn y hidup ataw y tlh meninggal dunia~~ :)

Well as all Malaysian know, Bersih 2.0, despite being banned and countless warning from the police are already done. From the news, it said that 500 students are involved during the day. As a student my self, personally I didn’t support doing some illegal demonstration (well even though it said as “perhimpunan” but it looks like a demonstration for me). I prefer the right way that is doing it directly to the one who responsible for the thing we wanna change. Like the Bersih, the main purposes are as well we can say as clean. They just want some justice that seem make sense. Their demands are something that good for all. It not towards any political view, but the way of conveying the purpose are somewhat make people disagree with the demand. Well, it is not their fault either, as the government didn’t make enough places for the so called “rakyat” to voice out their voice. Thats my view only. I’m also didn’t want to talk about what happen that day, what happen to the people involved, how they are treated and bla, bla, bla. But well, I cannot help myself from thinking, what are the student think when they make themselves involved in the thing. Isn’t it illegal? Police even warn them, days, weeks before the event. Isn’t that will make them break some college rules? Well maybe they think that they need to speak up on behalf of the student, but well guys, that are not the way. You gonna ruin your own future. Why not finish up studies, get a good degree, get recognition from university or college and then advance to the political career. That ways, people will look up to you and your “perjuangan”. Doing something that will make you in trouble will not make people respect you but people do know you as someone who is brave (that’s not a doubt). True, that student voice MUST be heard. I’m using must instead of need as it is vital for a growing country as our country which aims to be an advance country listen to the young voice. These young voices are the voices which will lead the country to future. People will not live forever, when the time comes, these young voices will be the leader of the country. If their voices are ignored, big and abrupt changes will be made by the time young voices become leader. Abrupt changes are not good. People are hard to accept abrupt changes. They need time, and when leader and people are not one, the vision of becoming an advance country is even further away. Our voices need to be heard and fast. So why not giving us a platform to voice out? Well I’m not really know the function of MPP in my college but I guess it is one of the platform that given for us to use. But, everybody knows that it just for inside the campus not to the government. We need some place to voice out our opinion, plans and aspiration but not by involving ourselves to some illegal demo. I still personally think that inappropriate for student.

P/S

I’m just conveying my voice through some technologies. Are the government will notice my voice? Naah, I doubt so. But doing this makes me feel relieved and hope not make me in trouble. ^^.